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Fitting into Hollywood body standards doesn’t come easy toDrew Barrymore, and at age 45, she’s accepted that.
The actress and mom of two is speaking openly about her body struggleson Instagramfor what she’s calling her “#WellnessWeek,” and on Wednesday, she talked about the “rollercoaster of my body.”
Barrymore said thather body has changed significantlyover the years, especially duringher two pregnancies.
“I go up and I go down. The rollercoaster of my body is a challenging, but beautiful ride. I made two kids. The single most important purpose for me being on this planet is for them! It is a true miracle I was able to have these two girls. So whatever the aftermath on my body, well bring it on!” she wrote.
Barrymore added, though, that she foughther natural shapefor most of her life.
“There have been times I have stood in my closet and just cried. Hated getting dressed. Didn’t feel good!” she said. “It takes so much for me to look decent. I have to eat just right and work my ass off! I cannot fight the fact that I have the propensity to be the Pillsbury dough boy! (Now all I can think about is crescent rolls).”
Barrymore said she doesn’t focuson looking a certain way anymore, and instead works on feeling mentally healthy with her trainer,Marnie Alton.
“NOW I have found that elusive B called BALANCE. 45! It only took 45 years to find myself. Right where I am supposed to be. And it’s not perfect. But it’s me,” she said.
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Barrymore told PEOPLE in Junethat she plans to share her body positive mindset with her daughters Olive, 7, and Frankie, 5, when they get older.
“I’ll be able to talk to my kids in a very real way about having to work with ourselves the way that we are,” she said. “We’ve got to embrace it. We were all made a certain way.”
source: people.com